Have you ever been scared to try something for fear of failure? This isn’t normally an attribute I’d apply to myself. I’m usually the uber determined type who, when I put my mind to something attacks it with everything I’ve got. Not necessarily a bad thing, but can be mentally and physically exhausting. Some might call it stubbornness, I like to think of it as great determination.
I consider myself to be a hard worker and can honestly say I have had few failures in life, I just don’t let it happen. I keep trying over and over until I get the end result I want. I can apply this to school, having the life I want, budgeting, having a baby, literally every aspect of my life. I’m not saying I haven’t made mistakes, I think mistakes are a necessary part of life that allow a person to grow and I think it’s making the biggest mistakes is how one really discovers the person the are, but everyone knows learning from mistakes is a hard life lesson to learn; which is why I’m scared to fail.
When I was a kid I took sewing lessons after school, I use to be pretty decent if I remember correctly, but once the lessons stopped so did I. This is something I wish didn’t happen but kids are kids and none of my friends were into sewing, nor was my mom or sister, so I didn’t want to be the kid who sat inside all day sewing to my heart’s delight while my friends were outside playing. I didn’t make a conscious decision to stop, it just happened.
I didn’t realize, or appreciate, the importance of the skills I had once learned until I moved out in my early 20′s and whipped out the sewing machine to hem some pants; I had totally forgotten how to even thread it! Tactile skills like sewing are similar to learning a new language, you need to use the skills once in a while to maintain competency and I had forgotten pretty much everything.
Why I’m scared…
I want to get into sewing again. More specifically I’d like to start a modest side income by making items to sell, specifically baby ring slings. I’m a big advocate for babywearing, have a ring sling, adore it, think I could probably pull it off, but if I don’t….I’d fail. If I’m going to embark on this (and this is something I’ve been thinking about for years, well before I had a baby) now is the time. I have 6 months before I return to work. Between sites like etsy.com, a possible self hosted website for sales and my farmer’s market, I genuinely think I could pull it off. All this, only if I can manage to create a quality product. There’s a huge market out there for babywearing and people like choice, so I think I could carve my little niche in our local market at least, I’m not looking for worldwide recognition or anything!
In order for me to do this, I first need to get back into sewing. I can’t just whip a quick product out, I’m a perfectionist and if my name is going to be attached to anything it has to be perfect. I have to practice and fabric is expensive to practice on. I could probably overcome this by purchasing used bedding at a thrift store to cut apart and practice on until I was satisfied.The second hurdle is initial investment. For me to do this project I would need to put money into it to make my initial few products to sell, but what if I don’t sell? I’d fail at a ‘dream’ and be out money which would just bother me. Not to mention the time factor. Although now is the time, with a baby, husband, family and blog I all love, it will be hard to put the hours into it I know may face me.
Having said all this, I really want to try. I think I’ll get the sewing machine out and see what I can accomplish before diving head first into it. I’ll keep you all posted with any progress I may make.
I think attempting something and failing is better than not attempting and going through life never knowing how great I may be.
Have you ever embarked on something that scared you? How did it work out?